My (...and my small family) 's 2020

Alhamdulillah... Alhamdulillah.. Alhamdulillah....

2020.. what a year..
But syukur, Alhamdulillah for all the nikmat, dugaan, rezeki, blessings and a lot more....

Started the year konon² brisk walk/jog every evening at the nearby park daily lepas balik ambil SNM from school... Alhamdulillah as well we found a new school/day care for SNM this year. Was quite a year masa 2019 hari-hari risau tengok keadaan dia nak pergi sekolah. Now I know why Mom will know if something is wrong with me, it is just the instinct. But alhamdulillah 2020 we found a better place for her.

Back to the brisk walk/jog Sampai February jelah. Lepas tu dah PKP. Sekian jelah. 

In January and February too, three of my cousins tie knot. Dua orang engaged, seorang got married. Alhamdulillah...

Started with Azmil bertunang, then we all ke Taiping for Natri's engagement and of course the no other #zahiraAH 's wedding. 

Glad that we slot some time for an early dinner with my beloved #iiumsisters . Planned for a glamping together with our families but tinggal kenangan aje for now. InsyaAllah soon.  Bagus juga my bothDs adalah budak International School, so their Sports Day kami dah selesai selamat before segala PKP bermula. They're in yellow house this year, and me as their Aunty of course lah yang terpaling excited ok... kuning tu... fav color terus! 

(Tapi my school years, rumah kuning ni selalunya corot. hahahaha..... )

Come March.. PKP bermula.. gosh how our #babysnm koyak mental berkurung. According to our Pediatrician, snm started buat perangai sebab her normal routine berubah drastically. Since she is 8 months old, memang dah hantar dia to school/day care. Then, weekend memang akan lepak at sis's place and Monday the routine stars again. 

Sekali, bila PKP ni, memang tak boleh keluar langsung... dia macam murung. Awal-awal memang dia happy sebab both of us memang depan mata dia 24/7 kan, but along the way, dia rasa macam something wrong.  But hikmahnya, we get to spent more time with her. From learning, playing, eating, exploring and semuanya lah with her. We even started teaching her gardening!

First time tak celebrate my BIL's bday in April due to PKP and also first time 'gather' with our BIG FAMILY via Zoom. 

In early May juga, we changed snm's insurance with out good friend Nuar. Senang tukar to someone yang kami kenal and terus juga sign up hibah with him. Kalau ada sesiapa yang tanya-tanya je, or interested nak tau boleh click link ni untuk usha his IG and his contact ada over there at the profile. 

Myself and husband started our #guloanauwaghih and #nasitanjaur journey and alhamdulillah masih on it. We also mula ber Young Living in May juga. Eh bagus gila oils ni. Mula-mula memang rasa macam ehhhhh biar betul... but somehow, these oils memang encourage and divert us to enjoy life and push our potentials. It's all about positivity lah. Dia bukan lah magic ke apa. But macam asbab gitu.

Also, kena juga di catitkan... buat pertama kali dalam hidup.. diri ini gunting rambut manusia lain. Dan mangsanya tak lain tak bukan adalah husbandku sendiri! hahahaha.... Perhatikan betul-betul collage di atas ye, habis semua clip rambut snm ku kerjakan. 

One day je dapat berbuka puasa with my family this year...and nasib baik waktu tu dah PKPB. Dapat lah celebrate birthday sis as well. 

We celebrated our #babysnm 's 2 years old birthday PKP style. Went to all important close family members house with full SOP just as long as our baby is happy. Tq families for making it happen! 

Come July, school dah start buka semula. Tawakal sangat-sangat hantar kenit tu semula. But before it start off, her school panggil us all bagi briefing on how the new norm going to kick off.  I actually requested for office to bagi I masuk balik. Our laptop dah tak boleh carry dah the amount of data that I saved in. Sebelum dia kaput, memang kena buat something about it cepat. Masa dapat masuk office rasa jakun pun ada jumpa orang selain the household. Hahaha...

July and August banyak juga benda yang sangat-sangat unexpected happened to us. After years of working, my first time dapat laptop and my work sangat-sangat senang banyakkkkk sangat with all my necessary systems and applications ada depan mata. 

Our dear #busukmasam  a.k.a bigD did super well for his IGCSE and masuk college dah!! Alhamdulillah!! Our lil SNM pun dapat award juga for school. Our lilD also did well for her exams. Syukur, Ya Allah. 

Bila Zoo Negara reopen, bawak snm there. To support the industry and also she's really into animals now. Semua pun nak sayang. Sayangggg tiger... sayangggg lion... sayanggggg bird... sayang panndaaa.... haih.

Kami also sempat bawak snm naik Genting but sampai GPO jelah. Tak berani nak bawak sampai atas sangat sebab takut dengan crowd. Kalau GPO senang kawal sebab she'll be in her stroller most of the time. Thanks to her school practise, she have no problem wearing mask lama-lama. 

We also sempat layan a really super short trip to Penang. Agak clingy lah bila PKP ni kicks off. Mana-mana pun kemain bertiga beranak je kerjanya. Walhal dulu tak kisah pun. 

Also in August, something hit our big family badly. Remember awal-awal tadi I cerita pasal my cousin Natri bertunang at Taiping? Siapa sangka that this is the last time we actually jumpa dengan dia...

My dear cousin passed away mengejut a few days before her Nikah day. It was a really sad and shocking moment to us all. I ni takde adik, but dengan anak-anak my UncleM nilah yang memang I buat adik-adik I sendiri..bukan hanya cousin. 

Nak menaip ni pun, entahlah.. masih bercampur baur perasaan tu.

Al Fatihah to our dear Wan Penny Sunestri Binti Wan Zahari. Semoga Allah menempatkan Natri bersama yang beriman. Ameen Ya Rabb.

Celebrated msn birthday in September pun sangat PKP style. We stayed at Sheraton PJ for one night bagi seronok budak kecik tu. Dia punya excited macam orang celebrate birthday dia pulak. Hahaha...

Come October, first time ever hubs admitted in due to high BP and now we are trying to change our food intake and lifestyle slowly but surely. Sangat menakutkan OK waktu tu. Dahlah myself and snm was at my sis's place. Husband stayed at home sebab MIL baru lepas operation. Jadinya, he wants to monitor and jaga MIL at home. Dia lepaskan myself and snm sebab tak nak kacau routine snm yang baru nak mula semula. 

Ada hikmahnya Allah gerakkan hati kami susun begitu. If not, tak ke kalut? How to handle snm kalau I sorang-sorang. Bukan main-main that night itself msn terus kena duduk ICU/HDU. BP terlalu tinggi sampai dia kena dipantau ketat. 

But Alhamdulillah, semuanya selamat dah. Now memang kena jaga betul-betul.

Come October also, I got Norwex-ed. Hahahaha.. Nak jugeeeekkkk... But seriuslah paling in love dengan the Kitchen Towel. Eh kemain senang lah... ini baru magic! (Padahal it's the technology)

Also in October, my dear husband kicked off a project called Kongsi Kasih which we will be launching and elaborate soon!! (Appreciate your kind support and doa for this!). Really high hope for this where we wanted to not only help ourselves, but also others and the economy as a whole. InsyaAllah.

Masuk November, which is actually our month dengan tak la seronok sangat. Our dear Cik Lia masa ni dah mula kritikal... Dah la musim-musim PKP ni.. it is not easy for us to ke sana ke sini sebebas dulu untuk lincah menolong apa-apa yang patut.

Alhamdulillah dapat juga curi masa and redah visit dia waktu she's at the ward. Earlier in September tu, dapat lagi berborak dengan dia masa we sama-sama celebrate birthday our Daniel. Nak jadi cerita, on my birthday eve this year, Cik Lia pergi meninggalkan kami semua selamanya. What a year 2020. What a year.

My adik lost her mom. I know she's strong to go through semua ni. But, losing someone close to us bukan mudah, Tambah lagi, mak kita kan....

Al Fatihah Cik Lia.

Celebrated our Anniversary / my birthday our way and enjoy our 3 nights staycation at Mandarin Oriental, KL.

Sesudah Subuh, kami pay our last respect to Cik Lia dulu. Sementara snm masih tidur kan... Dah selesai, pagi tu, kami breakfast with MIL dulu. snm hantar school macam biasa. Then noon, kami dating and usai dating pick kenit from school and terus ke sis's place for dinner with my family pula.

Tahun ni paling banyak surprise delivery yang diterima. Syukur ya Allah.. Memang PKP style sungguh kemain asyik-asyik orang panggil hantar macam-macam! Seronok gila! Semoga Allah kurniakan yang baik-baik buat semua yang memberi.

Tak habis lagi November, berita kematian ketiga tahun ni pula. This time, on arwah Abah's side. My cousin lost her husband. 

Ni pun macam sekejap sangat baru dapat tau diagnosed cancer and due to PKP semua tak sempat nak susun visit ke apa, but Allah lebih sayangkan Abg Ikram, Al fatihah... 

Ini jugalah asbab kami kembali ke Malim Nawar.  

Ended the year with a weekend birthday-cation for Mak's birthday and Ipoh trip for Wani's wedding.

Alhamdulillah despite all the hardship, challenges and macam-macam dugaan, we managed to end our 2020 quite well.

Indeed, Allah is the best planner. Jangan sesekali kita semua ragukan rahmat Allah. Ada jalannya untuk setiap kesukaran. Macam mana genting sekali pun keadaan, jangan sesekali biarkan ianya putus.

Bismillahhirrahmannirrahim to 2021.
May Allah protect and keep us safe always.

Maaf Zahir Batin from us. May the new year brings everyone a great blessings, health, iman and happiness. InsyaAllah, Ameen. ❤️❤️

Love, Ayu

Down to memory lane...

25th December 2020... the last Friday of this tough year.... is definitely a memorable one. Maybe since ada all these social media platforms, I have never or sangat cuit-cuit je mentioned about my hometown on arwah Abah's side. 

Bukan marah, bukan benci, mungkin berjauh hati. Biasalah, setiap keluarga ada 'drama' nya kan? At the end, blood is definitely thicker than water. What I can say is, communication is the key. Ego kena buang jauh-jauh. Hidung jangan tinggi sangat. Sebab, nanti menyesal dikemudian hari. #selfreminder 

Alhamdulillah, syukur that my sis had this idea of coming back here to visit our cousin sister yang baru kehilangan husbandnya. 

But wait, before anyone wants to terdetik on anything, let me get this crystal clear, first. Yes, we literally menziarah but of course, we followed SOP ok. My sis makes sure everyone was disinfected before kami sampai to Yong's (our cousin) place. My husband siap bawak our portable UV light ok. Ni bukan nak self-defense ke apa as we don't owe anyone an explanation. But, it is also something we wanted to ingat sampai bila-bila... a visit during pandemic and how we embrace the new norm by #kitajagakita.

So anyways, back to the visit. Arwah Abah was born and breed from Kg. Malim Nawar, Malim Nawar, Perak. I can truthfully say that I spent most of my childhood and school holidays, here. I learned how to ride a bike here. Weiiii jangan main² bukan sebarang basikal ok, basikal tua! (go Google on how it looks like!)

Punyalah 'rajin' sangat balik kampung kan.... sesat barat weiii!!! Ya Allah... lawak nak mati. Memang berderai gelak tu. Mula-mula macam excited... eh ni dah lain, eh ni dah lain... tiba-tiba sampai penghujung jalan... eh! mana jalan masuk kampung? hahahhahaa.....

Lepas tu bergaduh² on house number and address. Sis pro gila siap hafal lagi nombor rumah Yong. But macam biasa, semua competitive tak bertempat..kemain argue dalam kereta kata dia salah. Hahahaa.... (Turun² kereta terus sis terpa Yong.. "Yong, apa nombor rumah Yong ni??" - Korang mampu terpa tuan rumah macam tu?? Hahhahahha... And yes, my sis betul ye. 👏👏👏👏)

Tapi eksyen weiiii nak juga try sendiri (yes, Waze fail on us!) .. last² called our niece to the rescue. She got his brother to rescue us. Adoih. 

(Thanks Tajul & Ayie!)

Awhhhhh.... my heart just bloom. Speechless. There's no words to describe how I felt bila jejakkan kaki back here, in Malim Nawar.

It's my husband's first time here. It's lilD's first time too. Our daughter's too!

Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah syukur. 

(Abaikan muka ku yang menahan gelak tu)

From left, clockwise: Mom, our nephew Tajul, our cousin Yong, Yong's sister, also our cousin Kak Ulin, hubs, BIL, bigD, lilD, yours truly and sis. (Missing in this picture, Tajul's wife, Wati and their children)

Start from bercerita perihal arwah Abg Ikram (Al Fatihah), sampai la to all the memories that we've been through here. Aduhai... Tak tau la nak describe macam mana. Lost in words to luahkan.

Budak kecik kat hujung tu bukan main seronok ye. Bebas berlarian kesana kemari sebab semua melayan dia. 

Yong bagi dia main toys lama Ala a.k.a Iskandar (her youngest son) which is a remote car.. eh punya happy joget joget minah tu. Awak tu girl laaaaaa... Perangai siapa la dia ikut ganas macam boy niiiii (jeling diri sendiri).

Thanks Wati for the delicious Mee and Cekodok. 

Lawak seterusnya bila balik kampung ni, my sis and I adalah yang bongsu here. Ini menyebabkan bigD, lilD and SNM automatically jadi Uncle and Aunties here. Anak² Tajul macam tercengang and blur sebab kena panggil SNM, Aunty Baby. Hahahhaha... Bertabahlah ye. I would like to keep this tradition bukan sebab pangkat, tapi untuk mudah for our younger generation get hold of the susur galur keturunan. Jangan nanti tak tau macam mana bersangkut. At least, bila teringat that you kena panggil si kenit ni Aunty Baby, it will somehow clicked who is Nenda Ayu to your Opah. 

Tak nak nanti senang² je, sedara tu.. sedara ni.. tapi tak tahu macam mana bersangkut. 

Tq Yong, Kak Ulin, Tajul & family.

InsyaAllah, we will come back. There's a lot more to show and tell to bigD, lilD & SNM. Selama ni, they dengar cerita je. But now, we can actually show it to them. 

Masih terngiang² ayat pertama Tajul once I stepped down from the car.. "Macam mana Mak Ayu boleh sesat, tadi???"

(Danggg!!!!! Memang lawak laaaaaaaaaa... Heroin round kampung dengan basikal sesat bila balik kampung)

Last but not least, I end this entry with picture rumah pusaka arwah Atok. Al Fatihah Atok... I missed you, dearly. 

Love, Ayu

I Love U, Adik. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Sempena weekend...

Ramadhan day 4 and 5 memang bukan di rumah.
Phewww... Tak pernah lagi mom record makan diluar sampai dua hari berturut... Hari Isnin terus sakit lutut.
kesian.mak.kita.

But anyways, Ramadhan ke-4 kami dapat jemputan Iftar rumah Syahrul. Conceptnya Pot-luck Iftar.
Dah la potluck dia dah siap request nak menu apa from my end.
nasib baik group saya memang ramai... so, sedar diri and ikut perintah yeeee...

Sejurus lepas Asar, we all pun gerak lah ke Cheras...

 

Kami yang terlibat.
Syahrul and his mom.
Me and my family.
My cousins.
Abg Ike and family.

Ni semua pic menunggu waktu while kami sedang final prep apa patut membantu tuan rumah di dapur..
hiks.
Biasa lah, selalunya mereka berdua sahaja. Ni sekali menyerang.... hamek ko...

 mak.saya

Seronok berbuka ramai macam ni. Meriah and terasa ukhuwah tu.

Usai berbuka, kami kemas lebih kurang apa yang patut and rush or our Maghrib berjemaah. My favourite part. Tak tahu lah kenapa dari dulu suka berjemaah dengan keluarga. Kalau nak ke masjid liat sikit. (statement minta kena panah petir)

usai Maghrib dan tahlil ringkas.. rehat sekejap.

before decide nak buat Isyak and terawikh sendiri or ke surau.

Both mothers said, buat sendiri sahaja. So, kita assign dua orang terengganu kita menghantar sumbangan bubur lambuk kita ke surau. wakil kami sekeluarga.

bila.orang.kemaman.berjumpa

sambil2 tu kami yang perempuan slowly gerak berborak dengan Aunty. Kecuali saya, Syahrul dan abang2 berdua. Konon kami ke depan rumah sekejap. but Aunty tak perasan.

Kami keluarkan kek yang memang dah sorok dalam kereta. Siap sorok kek dalam kereta Aunty pulak tu. Hahaha... kuang ajo sangat kan? Nak buat surprise but guna kereta orang yang nak disurprise. Haha.

Tengah dia leka berborak tu, kami pun nyanyi lah sambil bawak kek...eh eh eh terkejut diaaaaa..

main.singers.4.version.lagu.bday

melayu.cina.india.islam

nyanyi.sampai.candle.pendek.

Blur muka Aunty. Siap marah we all kenapa tak bagi dia bersiap pakai lawa2 baju kelip2.. Aduh.. kalau inform, bukanlah surprise kan?

 the.two.beautiful.mothers

Mom gave her this tudung.
Bukan main lagi terus sarung pakai bertukar..

She's very happy that night. Alhamdulillah. Idea Syahrul nak surprisekan bondanya menjadi..
:)

Family time begins.
Berborak. Bergelak. Mengemas.


and kidsss.....



doing their thing lah.
Hahahhahaa...

Owh ya.. tak share lagi menu kami malam tu kan?
Tuan rumah : Homemade meatballs, Roasted Chicken, Grilled Fish, Mee Goreng
Me and family: Garlic Rice, Steamed Broccoli, Potato Wedges
My cousin: Air segala jenis. Panas sejuk semua.
Abg Ike: Dessert.

Aduh. sendiri rasa terliur.

ASTAGHFIRULLAHHHHHHHH....
(kekuat sikit bagi iman dengar)

Tetiba dengar bunyi mengiau..kuat pulak tu..
Abu, kucing Syahrul balik. Muka confuse sebab tak pernah tengok orang ramai kat rumah dia gamaknya...
hahahahaha..

Budak2 bukan main terlompat nak main kucing. Tapi masing2 penakut nak pegang..
So, excuse me.. bagi Menteri Kucing ni tolong pegangkan...

Abu the cat.
Kucing pandai pandang camera... Tengok la dia tu.. Eiiii geramnyaaaaa...

Tengok. Orang panggil budak2 suruh tengok camera. Bukan main lagi dia pun sama menyibuk tengok camera. hahaaha...

Lawak la Abu...

I was trying to take picture with my sis but usaha kiu gagal ku si kenit tu menyelit.
Sobs.
Lama kot takde pic berdua dengan my sis.. Haih..
Susah betul.
Tak pe lah.. tunggu lah sok sok dah rindu ke.. menyesal ke takde pic berdua baru kita amik eh?
hahaha..

Note to self: Kena amik pic berdua dengan teta!!!!!!!!!!!

Dan sebelum pulang, kami cucu2 perempuan bongsu Hj Abd Aziz bergambar..
Balik dengan penuh santak. santak seronok dan santak makanan. Hehehehehe.

Esoknya, dalam berkira2 nak masak apa.. lilD pujuk papanya yang dia teringin nak makan her favorite chocolate lava kat Serai.

So, plannya...
Masak prepare for sahur.
Berbuka kurma dan air, solat Maghrib siap2 and off to Paradigm Mall..

Sis and BIL dah order sesiap.
Memang regular dah derang ni dengan Serai..

Ni budak yang teringin sangat Lava nya.. sedap oiiii....

Balik rumah, masing2 terawikh sendiri je... dan beraddduuuuuu...

Itulah cerita Ramadhan ke4 dan ke5 saya dan keluarga...

Love, Ayu

To my one and only....

.....sister....

SISTER Stands For
S stands for sincerity, that your world is filled with,
I stands for innocence, of your mind that makes you so rich. 
S stands for strong, that describes your heart best,
T stands for talented, that makes you stand out from the rest. 
E stands for encouraging, just the way you always do,
R stands for rare, and my dearest sister that's true.
Happy Birthday to you!


Hari ni my one and only sister's birthday.


It falls on Monday... but a lot of arrangement has been made earlier of course.
No one is of course the birthday present.
It's not like everyday I can buy my sister a present kan?


Setelah diamati... di kaji di tong2 and also ehem budget permits... I settled with something low key straight forward yet classy for my sis. Something just like her.

Its not easy at all to hide that big package from her ok.
plus, our beloved mom pulak asyik tanya risau my sis ternampak lah apa lah..
drama drama....

we all yang excited lebih mengalahkan birthday women, kan? ahhahahaha

so now the plan.
i have reserved a place for all of us to have lunch sama2. I like the cafe so much and i know my family will love it too.
And next, I planned for a family movie out together celebrating my bothDs for their achievement.
Syukur Ya Allah...

But the cafe and the movie venue agak jauh together...
So, plan B...
makan and movie at the same place.

What my sis know.. it's a movie day out.
What others know... a surprise for my sis while lunch.

With help from mom, BIL, my friend, and my beloved bothDs... the plan works!
sis was shocked when we sang her a birthday song and walk in the restaurant while bigD holding the cake and lilD with the knife..
and of course, my sis was busy munching garlic bread. ;)

the moment she knew the song is for her.. she asked us to slow our voices down and we automatically raised our voices up. hahahahaa.... so degil, right?
tau apa dia buat?

dia menyorok bawah meja.
hahahhaa...

usai lunch...
moh movie..

layan tengok Avengers.

nasib baik rezeki bothDs..movie tu ada lagi...
time movie tu release bothDs tengah exam.. memang tak boleh nak bawak dernag keluar tengok...

It is not the celebration
It is not the money spent

But it is the moment and time spent together on our special day...
or on our someone special's day.

Thank You Allah for all the blessings.
For the chance to enjoy life to the fullest with my family.
We might not be on the same channel most of the time...
But we are family no matter what.
Blood is indeed thicker than water.

I love you teta.
hope you love the present and the celebrations.
most importantly my prayer for you ..may Allah bless and protect you always with the best of everything here and the herafter....
my humble love as your sis...

28.05.2012

Blurbings By,

gong xi..gong xi....

Dah dua bulan belum chinese new year???

belum kannnnnnnnnnnnnnn... so ok lah tu.. ala cerita masih dalam pantang... gitu.

:P

anyways, bukan yang menyambut CNY je sibuk bershopping ok... saya pun sibuk nak tail sama...

actually it was for my bigD.

ada CNY celebration at their school and dia & lilD kena pakai Sam Foo and Cheongsam... mencicit la my sis jenuh mencari for them. lilD settle.. but for bigD... belum settle...
both sis & BIL s.o.s me at our bbm group... "tolongggg cari samfoo for bigD. nak kena pakai pegi sekolah etc etc etcccc...."

ok.
suka task yang diberi.
sebab boleh merayap time lunch.
ngeh ngeh.

cer teka yang mana satu yang dipilih for bigD...
selamba je ayu susun gantung gitu and take pic for pilihan parents so bigD...
siap biar kat situ sampai dernag buat keputusan lagi...

rezeki bigD its on 70% discount and buy one free one..
owh berbaloi!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(eh kalau perempuan, buy 1 free 1 berbaloi sahaja. padahal tak tau lagi satu tu apa nak dibuatkan)

so tara!

macam anak cina sungguh

so the next day tu, ayu pulak yang ada CNY celebration kat office.

makan2 je lah keje kat office ni. isk.

kebetulan di hari yang sama, received AngPow from my two bosses...
owh kaya!

terus-bangga-sebab-tak-kawin-lagi...ngeh ngeh

bukan setakan makan2.. ada gak tukar2 hadiah..

dah derang set kan gitu.... layan kan aje... follow the flow katanya... :D

dah habis.
malas nak buat penutup.

Blurbings By,