Down to memory lane...

25th December 2020... the last Friday of this tough year.... is definitely a memorable one. Maybe since ada all these social media platforms, I have never or sangat cuit-cuit je mentioned about my hometown on arwah Abah's side. 

Bukan marah, bukan benci, mungkin berjauh hati. Biasalah, setiap keluarga ada 'drama' nya kan? At the end, blood is definitely thicker than water. What I can say is, communication is the key. Ego kena buang jauh-jauh. Hidung jangan tinggi sangat. Sebab, nanti menyesal dikemudian hari. #selfreminder 

Alhamdulillah, syukur that my sis had this idea of coming back here to visit our cousin sister yang baru kehilangan husbandnya. 

But wait, before anyone wants to terdetik on anything, let me get this crystal clear, first. Yes, we literally menziarah but of course, we followed SOP ok. My sis makes sure everyone was disinfected before kami sampai to Yong's (our cousin) place. My husband siap bawak our portable UV light ok. Ni bukan nak self-defense ke apa as we don't owe anyone an explanation. But, it is also something we wanted to ingat sampai bila-bila... a visit during pandemic and how we embrace the new norm by #kitajagakita.

So anyways, back to the visit. Arwah Abah was born and breed from Kg. Malim Nawar, Malim Nawar, Perak. I can truthfully say that I spent most of my childhood and school holidays, here. I learned how to ride a bike here. Weiiii jangan main² bukan sebarang basikal ok, basikal tua! (go Google on how it looks like!)

Punyalah 'rajin' sangat balik kampung kan.... sesat barat weiii!!! Ya Allah... lawak nak mati. Memang berderai gelak tu. Mula-mula macam excited... eh ni dah lain, eh ni dah lain... tiba-tiba sampai penghujung jalan... eh! mana jalan masuk kampung? hahahhahaa.....

Lepas tu bergaduh² on house number and address. Sis pro gila siap hafal lagi nombor rumah Yong. But macam biasa, semua competitive tak bertempat..kemain argue dalam kereta kata dia salah. Hahahaa.... (Turun² kereta terus sis terpa Yong.. "Yong, apa nombor rumah Yong ni??" - Korang mampu terpa tuan rumah macam tu?? Hahhahahha... And yes, my sis betul ye. 👏👏👏👏)

Tapi eksyen weiiii nak juga try sendiri (yes, Waze fail on us!) .. last² called our niece to the rescue. She got his brother to rescue us. Adoih. 

(Thanks Tajul & Ayie!)

Awhhhhh.... my heart just bloom. Speechless. There's no words to describe how I felt bila jejakkan kaki back here, in Malim Nawar.

It's my husband's first time here. It's lilD's first time too. Our daughter's too!

Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah syukur. 

(Abaikan muka ku yang menahan gelak tu)

From left, clockwise: Mom, our nephew Tajul, our cousin Yong, Yong's sister, also our cousin Kak Ulin, hubs, BIL, bigD, lilD, yours truly and sis. (Missing in this picture, Tajul's wife, Wati and their children)

Start from bercerita perihal arwah Abg Ikram (Al Fatihah), sampai la to all the memories that we've been through here. Aduhai... Tak tau la nak describe macam mana. Lost in words to luahkan.

Budak kecik kat hujung tu bukan main seronok ye. Bebas berlarian kesana kemari sebab semua melayan dia. 

Yong bagi dia main toys lama Ala a.k.a Iskandar (her youngest son) which is a remote car.. eh punya happy joget joget minah tu. Awak tu girl laaaaaa... Perangai siapa la dia ikut ganas macam boy niiiii (jeling diri sendiri).

Thanks Wati for the delicious Mee and Cekodok. 

Lawak seterusnya bila balik kampung ni, my sis and I adalah yang bongsu here. Ini menyebabkan bigD, lilD and SNM automatically jadi Uncle and Aunties here. Anak² Tajul macam tercengang and blur sebab kena panggil SNM, Aunty Baby. Hahahhaha... Bertabahlah ye. I would like to keep this tradition bukan sebab pangkat, tapi untuk mudah for our younger generation get hold of the susur galur keturunan. Jangan nanti tak tau macam mana bersangkut. At least, bila teringat that you kena panggil si kenit ni Aunty Baby, it will somehow clicked who is Nenda Ayu to your Opah. 

Tak nak nanti senang² je, sedara tu.. sedara ni.. tapi tak tahu macam mana bersangkut. 

Tq Yong, Kak Ulin, Tajul & family.

InsyaAllah, we will come back. There's a lot more to show and tell to bigD, lilD & SNM. Selama ni, they dengar cerita je. But now, we can actually show it to them. 

Masih terngiang² ayat pertama Tajul once I stepped down from the car.. "Macam mana Mak Ayu boleh sesat, tadi???"

(Danggg!!!!! Memang lawak laaaaaaaaaa... Heroin round kampung dengan basikal sesat bila balik kampung)

Last but not least, I end this entry with picture rumah pusaka arwah Atok. Al Fatihah Atok... I missed you, dearly. 

Love, Ayu

Its been a while since the last time I jotted down  something in here. I missed this space. I missed this place. I missed it hard when no one will ever judge me writing whatever I wanted to. 

People come and go in life. Blog, this space used to be a place for me to fill in my loneliness. Yes. People around me makes me blogging. I met new friends. I run through new exposures.  But it has also alarmed some people that it brings negativity to me.

Lets just not go there.


Love, Ayu

Restoran Kudu Bin Abdul

MSN asyik bising nak makan at Kudu for quite some time. He used to go there with MIL and also his friends but since married lama dia tak makan kat sini. I served him well, I guess. #flipstudung

So one day before noon, MSN WhatsApp me and asked:

MSN: Are you going out for lunch?

Me: No plan yet so far. Anything?

MSN : Jom Kudu.

Me: Ok.

We reached there at 1230pm and the line is already outside the restaurant like this.

I kept on mumbling to MSN this better be good as it was freaking hot and we had no seats yet. MSN asked me not to worry because by the time it's our turn, there will be anyone done and there will a table for us. He said, it's just works every time.





 

Panas berdenting but full house.




For like about 10 minutes of queuing, finally it's our turn. My lauk is always simple. Either ayam goring / ikan tenggiri goreng, sayur (kobis or taugeh goreng) and kuah campur banjir.
It's my official Nasi Kandar choice of lauk tak kira dimana jua.

 Deretan lauk pauk:

Tenggiri Goreng, Ayam Goreng, Bendi Celur, Taugeh Goreng, Kari Telur, Ayam Kicap, Ikan Tenggiri Kicap, Ayam Parathal

 Lauk lagi:

Kari Udang Galah, Kari Ketam, Sotong Kicap, Telur Masin, Telur dadar, Daging Masak Hitam

 Super big Kari Udang Galah

 

Mine is the 1st picture and MSN's the next one.
So.. I added Tauhu Sambal and Telur Dadar.




Mine;
Nasi, Kari campur banjir, Ayam Goreng, Tauhu Sambal, Taugeh Goreng and Telur Dadar = RM 9


MSN;
Nasi, Kari campur banjir, Ayam Goreng, Taugeh Goreng and Telur Masin = RM 7.50


Total with our Bali Limau, Sirap Limau and Air Suam = RM 21.20




WORTH.EVERY.PELUH..
Hahaha.

It is so sedap that if rindu nasi kandaq penang mai la makan sini. (eh terus cakap Penang)
Please come early to avoid queue yang super panjang. We finished eating around 115pm and the line are still piling up.




Definitely going to come back.
(Tangan masih berbau kari)






How to go there:
Waze : Restoran Kudu
Address: 335, Jalan Tuanku Abdul Rahman, Chow Kit, 50100 Kuala Lumpur, Wilayah Persekutuan Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia




Love, Ayu

Fast & Furious 8

image credit to : Google Image

Almost all cinemas were fully booked for this must watch movie. Me & hubs been trying real hard to get the tickets one day after another. Thanks for not being alert and missed out the pre sale.
While both of us trying to book / pay the ticket online we both are like a movie bookie flipping through different cinema apps for the best timing / seats. Hahaha. And finally, we managed to blocked our seats at The Starling, Damansara... MBO's 4D cinemax.. weeee hooo!!!!!


Not even a blinked.
Even though we have suspected how the things going to flip the table around, but none of the story line were expected. The clue to everything had been highlighted since the first scene.
I am not going to give or hint any spoilers. Just giving out a few key points.


I have to say it is just another typical FF series of story. That is only applicable on the action part. Well, it has to be that way if not it wouldn't be titled as Fast & Furious. Duhhhh...


But, what's more important is the message behind. I respect the way the director build up all characters in this movie. The message is very clear.


The honesty.
The trust.
Family bond.
The teamwork.
The intelligence.
The skills.
Walk the talk.
Determination.
Strong will.
Infinity love.


Every single dialog has a message. Even it is from that funny Roman. Gosh that man. Hahaha.


So, if you haven't got the chance to watch, please do check it out ok? You wouldn't regret it.
8/10 from me. (Got to save the other 2 because if I'm Letty, I'll be jealous.. but, she's not! Oppsss!)


Note:
MBO The Starling. Please put a sign 'not available' to all products that you don't have it ready yet. 'Dah Habis' and 'Memang Belum Ada' is totally a different thing. It is quite frustrating when we excitedly asked for something and literally the menu was there first before the stocks are in. TQ.


Love, Ayu

Antara pendapat dan hukuman

Hukuman? Judgement.. hukuman lah kan in Malay?
(I'm not sure the direct translation of judgement or judging in Malay.. so, bantai ajerlah ye?)


I had a long talk with one of my closest colleagues tadi. We were just randomly talking about life, attitude, gossips and the after effects. And man... life is indeed a karma.


Now a days, in the news you'll be surprise with what is happening around you.
Mak bunuh anak.
Anak tetak mak.
Bapa rogol anak.
Abang rogol adik.
Parents tinggalkan anak2 sebatang kara.
Parents jual anak.
Jiran having intimate affairs.
Mertua punca cerai.
Parents punca cerai.
Remaja ada anak tidak sah taraf.
Penyakit pelik2.
Adik beradik tak bertegur sapa.
Orang Kaya Baru tak sedar diri.
Maruah perempuan is like, nothing!
Parents dibiarkan tua begitu sahaja


Now that I list everything out, I don't know which one to start.


Let's start about parenting. I am not a parents myself yet. But my circle is at all stages of parenthood.
What I can see, there is never a right or wrong in being a parents or on how you handle or educate your children. But, what is important is the basics in life. Teaching them to respect, to be fair, to share, to be decent.


It is ok to have some sort of standard of your own, but it is not ok if sampai tahap jadi disrespectful. Contoh; you tend to educate your children to be friended or to mix around only with a certain type of people. To make it worst, even among families. Your children are only allowed to be nice to Aunty A, Aunty B but not Aunty C. It's because Aunty C is just an ordinary medium class Aunty. Not those posh rich Aunties.
So, anak2 yang baik tiba2 dah jadi disrespect. Even though you had everything covered for them both ilmu dunia and akhirat... but at then you are building their attitude menjadi kurang ajar and memilih tak bertempat.


It is good untuk bagi anak2 bercampur dengan sekeliling yang bagus dan high standard. Tetapi, you have to allow them to mix around. Supaya in the future, when you are not around... dia senang bergaul ketengah ketepi... dan yang paling penting, semua orang akan senang with them.


Parents hanya nak yang terbaik untuk their children but along the way, they screwed up without realising it. Anak2 you tak membesar sekelip mata. Support system sekeliling you yang banyak membantu you from Day 1. You like it or not, you owe them. But of course, di dalam dunia sekarang, akhirnya parents yang tolong tengokkan cucu ni akhirnya jadi obligation pulak. Belum lagi hati yang terguris sebab dah lah orang tua tu tolong jaga cucu tu.. tapi tak boleh cucu kena marah sikit.. dah anak menantu pulak hentam orang tua tu...
Berdosa, tau tak?
Mak ke.. Mak Mertua ke.. hukumnya sama. BERDOSA.


Itu belum lagi yang masa berlengas, orang lain tengok2 kan.. bila dah besar baru parents take over. Terus take over sampai lupakan langsung sejarah silam. Support system yang di gunakan dulu ni kemain terkapai kapai sahaja dibiarkan. Siap anak2 tu menyombong lagi dengan the support system tu.


Nampak tak?
Tujuan asal nak bagi the best education ever. Nak educate the best.
Akhirnya, jadi disrespectful.
Bukan semua, but hampir semua.
Yang buat, tak akan sedar. Tapi, yang dibuat sangat terkesan.


Ada tu anak2 ramai, Alhamdulillah semua ada bahagian masing2.. Tapi tak larat nak jaga ibunya.
I am agak terkesan with my cousin's statement baru ni.. "I don't want to put any of my children's name.. sebab nanti, even I am still alive, depa dah hantaq me to old folks home..."
and no, anak2 nya sangat baik budi jaga dia semua. Cuma dia berjaga-jaga kerana hati manusia ni, bila Allah nak duga, kena pusing tu sekelip mata sahaja.


Awak ada rumah, dia pun ada.
Rumah dia kecik, tetap namanya rumah juga.
Awak ada kereta, dia pun ada.
Kereta awak lebih hebat? Tapi, kereta dia senantiasa membawa ibunya berjalan2.


Life ni simple jer.
Jangan mula pertikaikan hak orang.
Jangan mula compare dan up ego sombong dengan orang.
Darah sama merah.
Kalau sakit, kat bank blood tu tak sempat pun nak pilih darah orang kaya only.
Kalau meninggal, tak sempat pilih pun orang kaya je allowed nak tolong angkat you masuk kubur.


Dalam mengeducate anak-anak... we should educate ourselves as well.
Jangan baru join usrah, terus buat dalil. terus jatuhkan hokum kat orang.
You tak tau apa amal dia.
You tak tau macam mana hati dia.


Kesimpulannya... bersederhanalah.
Campur lah dengan masyarakat.
Jangan sombong.
Lebih kronik. Jangan bodoh sombong.






Love, Ayu

Beauty and The Beast (BATB) - The Movie 2017

In this Internet world, sadly I would like to say sorry that I am from Malaysia and yes, Malaysia has been quite "hot" banning BATB earlier on. This fairy-tale has been my favourite like forever.. and yes, I was so looking forward to it since day 1 of the promo is out.

Poor LeFou..
But luckily due to a lot of pressure, the movie was released finally. Booked the pre-sale tickets and force MSN to accompany me.




MSN's point of view:
"The controversy had me expecting more from this movie. But along the way I realised that it is a Disney's fairy-tale... and this is not a disappointment at all!
The musical, the cinematography.. all are good..."

Me?
I love everything about it.
The songs.
The dresses.
The script.
It makes the 7y/o in me smiling all through.

It wouldn't be a must watch movie.. but it is definitely every girl's dream to watch it.


Credit: Google Image




Love, Ayu

Major throwback: My Bridal Showers.

Yup. Showers. I had two. Both a surprise.
Alhamdulillah.




Before any judgement being made, please understand that my concept of a Bridal Shower is mainly being together with all my close ones. With this hectic lifestyles, it is very difficult to have everyone gathers for just a simple 15 minutes. Plus, we have Facebook, WhatsApp, Instagram and etcs.. why bother meeting up?
Pffftttt....




I wanted to host my own shower actually. Because, I am the only one who will know who that I wanted to spent a little 'joy' with before getting married. But moving towards 'the' day... Everything went crazy, I can hardly sit alone for even 5 solid minute... No proper sleep... Suddenly a lot of things need to be done and bought..ANDDDD everyone's emotion goes haywire. Don't ask about my emotion. It is beyond haywire. Bridezilla?? (Do you have any other worst word that I can use?)




So day changes very super fast that it's already a week before the wedding. So I decided to cancel my day spa, meni pedi and body massage. MSN was not very happy about it but due to circumstances at his end as well, he couldn't bother about it that much.
wedding.preparation.is.killing.us.




We even thought of cancelling the wedding.. yes, that serious. not us. but all the people around us.


But like a miracle, my close colleague, Ina.. suddenly call me up and booked me for an advanced birthday and wedding present. She said, I just need to take leave, be at home and she will pick me up. I agree in split seconds. I mean being away for just a teh tarik session aaarrggh,, blissful. 30 minutes of stress free from the wedding preparation. OK. bring it on!




I was excitingly happy waiting for Ina to pick me up that morning. Hati excited, tangan masih last minute gentel favors for VIP lagi. Ina sampai, jemput masuk sekejap jumpa Mom and off we go...
Bangsar bebeeeehhh...




It was a beautiful 2 hours session that are so super relaxing. It was on a working day, hence Bangsar is less hassle and the spa was so empty. It was only me & Ina. Haha.


Done Spa, I have made a promise to accompany Ina makan. This women bila part makan, janji means janji ok. Since she chooses the place semua, why not kan? We bumped into my cousin brother in the mall. He was shocked. Let me tell you why...




Becauseeeeeee... Ina & MSN planned this up!
Isk!

the culprits

THEY HAVE PLANNED THIS FOR TWO WEEKS AND I DIDN'T EVEN HAVE A GLIMPSE OF AN IDEA ABOUT IT AT ALL!!!!!!!


That Spa was nothing actually. It was just a way to bring me there. There's Elly, MSN, my cousin brother (Abg Saiful), Yanok, Yanok's mom and Amad too!


It was so much fun and relief dapat duduk setempat dengan tenang just chilling makan minum gelak semua. But, most of the time, Ayu nangis. Haha... Jadi session mengadu lak kat situ. Cembeng sangat.


Some pictures from the session:

Depa pun bukak lah cerita on how gigih MSN susun atur semua ni. Sebab dia nak juga buat because he said I am so stressed out teramat sangat approaching wedding ni.
(memang pun)

Tq Cik Abang for making it happen. Appreciate it!


That is on the 10th of Nov.. the next day, on the 11th... My niece Nana ajak lepak makan at Kulcats. Like terus cakap onnnnssszzzzz sebab I had been wanting to eat there like forever!!!!!!!!
(nak kawin pun fikir pasal their crème brule lagi tau...sedappp)


Sekali sampaaaiiiii... ada Angah, Achik, Ateh & Qeema as well! Lepas tu, MakAyu depa ni pun started crying dah. Owh my.. these beautiful souls yang Mak Ayu tengok membesar depan mata celebrating me. I am truly honoured and terharu.....

Nana even hosted 2 games that night. It was so hilarious and I can proudly say my nieces knows me well.

I super love the cupcake bouquet.. I super love the games hosted... great food.. nice place.... and there is so much love from these bunch.
sedih lak tiba2.


I love you sayang2ku...
Thank You so much for making this for me.


May Allah reward all of you with abundance of love forever. Muahsss!!!!!

jom nikah jom.

Love, Ayu

Not fussy about..

Hey Sunday.. I am not ready to meet your next in line friend, errr..Monday.
Heheh...

Currently in a hair saloon very very near to my current house which I think I will make it as my official regular saloon...

I was never fussy over getting my hair done. Like other normal women that need a saloon visit twice a month atleast etcs..

Me? I'm quite a simple one that just buy everything from a shelve,  read instruction and do it manually at home.

But marriage change me I guess. I'm turning 36 years old this year and just started having my saloon visit. Never too late for anything, right??

By the way, you guys watched The Avengers:  Age of The Ultron yet? I love it to the max. My family too. Went for a family outing on Saturday to watched the movie. Superb.

Back to the saloon treatment thingy, life was very simple for me back then. My hair stylist was my sis whom the one that trim, cut or whatever instructed by mom for my hair do. Having a sis that is 9 years older than you makes you quite confident in trusting her.

Simple life.
That's all I want.



Love, Ayu

24 years....and I am still missing you badly..

Assalamualaikum...

Dear Nenek..

Rindunya...MasyaAllah... Rindu sangat2...
Setiap kali kami berkumpul beramai2... All I can hope is for you know your anak cucu cicit semua masih mengamalkan berkumpul bersama2 etcs..
Walaupun kami sangat sibuk and sangat jarang nak berjumpa berkumpul sekerap dulu..

Nenek, we hope all the 'candies' we sent you selamat tiba.. Awh..kalau lah confuse... it;s our doa for your nenek... hehe...

I miss your roti canai, cendol, kurma ayam, bubuq kanji, pulut kuning... your 'upah-upah' and your hugs and kisses...

24 tahun lalu... malam 20hb menjelang 21hb ni, malam terakhir Ayu lenakan nenek dengan zikir munajat... dan sampai ke hari ni, kalau Ayu tak boleh tidur, I will recite this zikir and lena terkenangkan senyuman nenek.

Macam tak percaya, dalam pejam celik.. dah 24 tahun nenek tinggalkan kami...

Nak tulis satu-satu kenangan kita, memang tak akan pernah habis nenek..Yang paling penting doa kami nenek tenang di sana.. nanti kita jumpa dia syurga ye nenek.. nenek tunggu kami semua tau...

I miss you nenek.. I really do...

i wished you are still here with me helping me going through all these phases in life.. but I know you're in better place now...

Ya Allah, jauhi seksa kuburmu dari nenda kami yang kami sangat kasihi..

Ampuni dosanya Ya Allah...

Aku mohon merayu.... cucurilah rahmat ke atas rohnya dan tempatkan lah dia disisi hamba2 mu yang solihin...

Al-Fatihah 

Hjh Zainab Bt Hj Abdul Rashid

Love, Ayu

Missing spot.

It's been a while.... years lah juga for me to write back in this beautiful space of mine.
Yup, while everyone is fading away from blogging, I choose to come back and hit the road again.

Tipu kalau kata tak rindu.. rindu setengah mati. In this space where I write, share and express my daily routine and also information...

But along the way, it;s such a heartache knowing that people judge me simply from writing and sharing here. Even worst, kalau happy post, memang semua judge tak hengat dunia... Kalau sad, siap judge padan muka...

Saya berhenti menulis dulu, untuk hentikan dosa orang lain.
Dosa mengumpat saya dibelakang.
Dosa buat assumption mengenai saya.

Saya masih hidup..apa kata datang face me up and ask..
Semua benda jadi, ada sebab musababnya..

So, chillex lah.
#hiduphanyasekali
#peoplemakesmistakes
#everyonedeservesextrachances
#nooneisperfect


Love, Ayu